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So I went home this weekend, and while I was at the gym on Sunday the trainer who does my body composition happened to be in there and so I went and put myself at the mercy of the calipers again. Despite eating constantly for a week in Canada and not going to the gym for a number of days right before the test, I still dropped a percentage point. I suspect it would have been two points, had I gotten the test done before the holidays messed up my schedule. But anyway, I'm now at 23% body fat. I only lost a pound of weight in a month, but I put on another 3 or so pounds of muscle. Whee! I lost most of my milimeters from my triceps which is a problem area for me so I'm quite pleased.

23% is solidly fit for a girl. Most models are much higher because they have so much less muscle mass. I'm finding it interesting that now that I'm 'normal' weight (better than normal, probably) I find beauty and fashion stereotypes much harder to fight and keep finding more and more things about my body to be neurotic about. When I was overweight, I just wanted to be healthy. Now that I'm very much healthy, I have sudden revelations that my bellybutton seems abnormally low compared to most bikini models'. Really. What the hell is up with that!?

It may have to do with the complete lack of attention I'm getting from boys. Every once in a while I can be objective and be really impressed by the increasing flatness of my tummy or the definition in my legs, but it's hard for me to focus on without external validation sometimes. I'm such an attention whore. :P